That's the cool part, it all sucks! I was a depressed teenager who thought 'I just need to move out', so I did, and everything was still terrible. So I thought, it's because I'm single, but I was still miserable with a girlfriend. So we moved in together, and life still sucked. So I figured, how can I be happy working for someone? That's the problem! So I started a business, but i'm still miserable. So I bought a house. Nothing. Engaged, nothing, married, nothing. I know. I need kids, that's it. But I had two, and I still stand in the shower every day wondering why I shouldn't kill myself. My marriage is a sexless, depressing mess. I love my kids, and they love me, but I would be worth more to them as a life insurance payout. I did everything right. All the shit you're meant to do. Yet it is still awful. Nothing ever changes.